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I'm not sure who was kind enough to give me 2 months of paid account time, but whoever you are, you are lovely!
While I'm at it, Happy Christmas f-list! I hope everything's good with you. I should post more, but AS Levels are full of fail.
Laura :)
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- Location:Desk!
- Mood:No' bad.
- Music:Bloc Party - Ion Square
Today was awful. To be honest, the past few weeks have been pretty crap...no sleep, feel sick half the time, 'friends' are being tosspots...nothing new really.
My fellow Nirish music fanboy is back from Cambridge, we've been to see Snow Patrol, then ASIWYFA and then Oppenheimer just before Christmas :) Eddie Izzard this Saturday with my family too. should be nice.
Bloody AS levels though, have a mock tomorrow and a mock on Tuesday, then exams after Christmas; plenty of study leave, though, and my work experience placement :3 I'm doing 2 days shadowing in a paediatrics intensive care unit in January, and possibly a few days at a local promoter in June. That's if I haven't given up by then, school is so shit these days.
My life is average.
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Haven't posted since that big Ash related ranty post. Well...I tweeted @ashofficial yesterday...and Oh My Days I got a reply. There's a potential all ages Belfast show in the spring. Which is yay in itself, but omg I got a reply! :D
In the real world, I'm doing fine. Winter's a bit hard to adjust to...really if the moon's still up it's still time to be in bed :(
I have to learn to knit again, though. Young Enterprise group, huzzah. Early mornings, sekrit product development, breaktime sales meetings... My company takes everything so seriously. It's amusing.
Seriously though. I got stuck on my ICT coursework today, had the teacher take a look at it...she told me what I was stuck on was beyond A Level, so she didn't help me D:
I enjoy my classes...they're just not what I really want to do. I get pointed looks from the careers teachers every so often. "that's a very difficult career to get started in..." IT'S A RECESSION. Wow >.>
I know, I sound very snippy, but they grind my gears.
I'm tired of being told that I'm not good enough, by people that barely know me; I know they have to be cautious because you can't just say someone's going to get their dream job straight out of uni...but a bit of faith and positivity would be smashing.
So would friends that aren't attention seeking and two faced...or overly clingy. Or wannabe counsellors.
Oh, woe. :P
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For. Fuck's. Sake.
It's kind of ironic, given that Tim's been so supportive of Oh Yeah, which was specifically meant so that under 18s could see more gigs. I know it's harder to make money on all ages gigs, but they could've done a show at the Ulster Hall and I'm sure it would've still been popular, if people want to see the band, not just get drunk at Katy Daly's. I feel like a whiny self centred brat just saying this, but they are my favourite band, so...yeah. :(
I mean...I still love them to bits, but I really really hope they're still touring in two years time. You can never really tell with bands, what they're going to do. :( :( :(
And my 'best friend's' party last night...oh, Internet! Why are people such wab-ends?
- Mood:
crushed
The word for a job is the same as the word for a journey that's a bit manic. I also hate my careers class; the teacher barely knows me, but pretends we're BFFs only to be condescending if anyone starts talking about doing something they like for a living.
I don't know what I want to do when I grow up. I'd like to do medicine, or law, or youth work, or ICT/programming. I don't know which one to choose; I'm not too worried just yet, I've got another year til UCAS start hounding me...
My ICT teacher's also a twerp; initial draft coursework deadline is this Monday - she missed classes, meaning very few people actually know what to do. I've done the bit she asked for, but I can't help others (even though I want to) because a. time pressure and b. I've done everything in a stupidly complex way that works, but only makes sense to me and twerp woman. But the class itself is lovely, and fulfils my RDA of geekiness. I also want to learn HTML & CSS, but we'll see how that goes because I do have three other subjects to do, and 2 committees, and doing mentoring for firsties. Although learning a programming language would maybe help me see if this is just a hobby, or something worth doing a degree with.
And the majority of friends-who-aren't-asshats are all away at uni now. Still, most are coming home for Christmas, not too long to wait. I don't think I'll do Nanowrimo this year though, because I don't really need anything else on. I don't really want to go to bed, either...but I suppose I might as well.
( *snik snik* )
I don't mean to complain, though. Things are going astoundingly well for the start of a new school year, and it'll be my time for Uni and all that when I'm old enough. It's not that long, anyway :3 I keep meaning to focus on the good things in life, but my mind keeps drifting to my ambitions and I get frustrated that everything's not happening fast enough.
Everything in its right place.
- Mood:
ill - Music:Radiohead - My Iron Lung
...sprawled over the majority of my desk chair; I'm perched on the edge of it like an eejit. But i don't want to wake her by force, so I'm just playing Icelandic classical music somewhat loudly. That alone signifies that I am not cut out for parenting."
IM, this evening.
(Winnie's still asleep; the Sigur Ros continues.)
- Mood:
amused - Music:Sigur Ros, various.
( *Awesome face here* )
- Mood:
determined - Music:ASIWYFA - Don't Waste Time Doing Things You Hate
Probably a curry; although that could change, just because I'm really craving it at the minute. A really nice korma, naan bread and onion bhajis...nom nom nom. Having said that, I'm having that tonight :P
Because...my exams are over! A month of 'orrible evil things is ovarrrr. Have given my revision textbooks to my younger friends, because it'll be them next year. French writing and physics. It went well enough, I was flummoxed by one physics question because I couldn't remember the formula to start it, then it popped up in my head with 2 minutes to go...I've never written so fast in my life, I'm telling you :P
Of course it's all okay now, but the results will be the real indication of mah brane skillz.
Tonight I'm slobbing out with a curry then Big Bang Theory S1. *blush* Tomorrow I'm sorting what can and can't be recycled or bunged off to charity shops; you really amass a tremendous amount of paper in two years. On Friday I'm going into Belfast for a picnic with friends, watching them get hammered and myself and Richard just lmao'ing at them.
After that, it's anything can happen summer... By later on I'll just be ready to collapse though, I've been all over the place today.
The Big Bang Theory has kind of shifted to be more important than Merlin. :'( I'd like to point out that my allegiances shift when the shows are on and off the air, so Merlin will be an obsession again come September, no doubt.
I wrote Penny/Sheldon fluff... My ficcing pen has not yet turned to dust, despite scrawling EVIL HET next to some historical notes about Guinevere.
Bahh.
More coherency later.
The last 300 words are a testament to the fact that I'm really, really, too young for all this :P Although exciting things are happening with my Amnesty group; we're doing an action on June 20th for refugee rights and awareness...aside from the fact that doing research and case studies left people near to tears, the practical planning is looking good. Bleeding heart liberals, yeah yeah. We're going to construct a makeshift refugee camp in Belfast city centre, in the main shopping district...all legally of course...it's looking very very cool.
Although of course, the fact that I've put so much importance on this summer means that in all likelihood it could be absolutely rubbish.
In other news, my dad helped me get 4OD working on the Mac last night, because I missed The Big Bang Theory because of Biology revision. Now Bio is over and I have room to breathe, I could afford to watch TV...aww, Sheldon.
- Mood: cheerful
Probably going into Belfast or Lisburn tomorrow; I'd like to get an address book...probably just a plain one, will decorate it with all the ragged comic books I picked up from Oxfam a while back. I have too many peoples' addresses and numbers written on scraps of paper, or worse; just in my mobile's phone book. Dodgy stuff, because mobiles are irritatingly volatile...this old brick is holding out nicely, but I don't want to take the chance :)
I can't wait for summer...something tells me this summer's going to be different. I'm hopefully starting A Levels in September (that sounds so weird, I'm definitely not old enough!), and I left compulsory edumacation a week ago. Scary stuff. I hope I don't lose touch with everyone...I'm doing A Levels at the same school, so it shouldn't be that hard until I get to Uni. Fingers crossed. Although having said that, I don't think losing touch with people would be all bad. Probably the opposite.
I'm hoping to do some work experience, and then just getting the train to wherever's sunniest, or biking around town for the craic. I'm not sure if I have the money or the energy to leave NIreland, but travelling's always fun. There's summer schemes booked, Belfast Pride (...for the craic), Amnesty, and going on the hunt for Awesome.
I have exams to do first though. Ho hum.
Also, does anyone know a vegetarian alternative to prawn crackers? A vegetarian friend of mine is going crazy for them, but obviously the prawn-y bit of them is not-so-good.
"You mean there's prawns in prawn crackers?"
"Um, yeah. Unless...what prawn crackers have you been eating?"
"Uh, well, I thought it was just a name."
"No, I'm afraid not. Well done there."
- Mood:
busy - Music:Iglu & Hartly - In This City
Alex, but Alexander fully. I like the sound of it, and it means 'warrior, defender of man'. Kind of fitting, with the whole human rights thing :P
Also it's gender-neutral in its shortened form, Greek, nothing like Laura and it's just awesome :) I've loved it ever since I was little. Kind of weird since I'm 'Alex' to people half the time anyway, it just depends what I'm comfortable with them calling me...
Haha.
It's actually been weird over the past few weeks, we've had some astounding weather for March. Today started off horribly, then was glorious over lunch, then shabby again. Ah well. Have been very busy, schoolwork, futureplans, life in general, gigging...
( Whirlwind of a week )
So tonight will be the first night in a while that I'm going to go to sleep without feeling under pressure to get things done IMMEDIATELY LIEK NAO.
P.S. spent too much money in Backbeat Records the other week, but on the upside Red Sirus are amazing. Apologies for the slightly breakneck pace of this entry, but I'm feeling quite restless at the moment. :) I love adolescence, especially when I know that I can do this.
- Mood:
creative, busy - Music:Red Sirus - Twinkle
I know that extremists, especially in the context of the Troubles, will never quite go away. There are too many people who take it seriously enough to educate their children and their peers in this way; they're vastly out-numbered by the rational population of Northern Ireland, but still they manage to cause fear.
The maximum amount of fear caused by the minimum amount of 'work'; that's what they're looking for. It can't go back to the 'bad old days' no matter what journalists will speculate. We've grown too much as a society, to let this drag us back. I may not agree with a lot of what my politicians say; I may not follow a popular church; but I know that I can't be the only one that gets frustrated when Northern Ireland is reduced down to Catholics and Prods, orange and green and blood red.
When I was small I was scared of everything. The politics and military edge to everything just made it confusing and violent. Now I understand it, I have my own opinions and my own voice. I refuse to be scared by a few 'wee ganches'. Murder and harming others is not the way to go about getting what you want. It may be an effective scare tactic, but you won't convince people for long.
I'm on Twitter - dramaticboy - God help us all. Had been unsure as to if I'd get an account or not, then a mate of mine emailed me to say "Get oneeee!" ...so I did. Peer pressure is a terrible thing, I tell thee. Really, I'm all over the internet...Twitter, Notemine, LJ, Bebo, Youtube...I'm all connected up lulz. Just a warning, if you're on my FL and you have twitter, I may follow you; you're of no obligation to do the same though. ty!
So what's been going on since my last infrequent update? Well, I'm on my last day of mid term holiday...not done much tbh. Was in hospital for just under a week with that 'migraine' I had. The only thing that helped it was morphine, then that wore off, so they kept switching my meds to try and prevent dependency. Was unpleasant, but the best place to be, I suppose. Neurology dept. was flummoxed, and my neurosurgeon saw nothing wrong from 5 different scans...opthalmology was like "WTF, it's just a migraine, not our department u guise!" Neurology then had a decent look, said it's not a migraine but definitely a neurological problem. A few days later I was sent home; am still a little bit wonky but getting better :3 I think I've fecked up a muscle in my foot though as I can barely walk, got the Tubigrip on it but I'm hobbling like a pirate with a peg leg. Would be funny if I had not got sh*t to do.
Mmf. Also also MERLIN MERLIN MERLIN! Dragged myself out to Tesco's Monday morning to get Volume 2. Have not watched all of it yet...Mum gives me funny looks when it's on...shame. But the extra features...oh, boys. Even Angel and Katie see the love. Also, lol at Merlin having its own tag on my LJ It's that important!
How are you?
- Mood:
blah
Exams are all over, results are slowly trickling back, aaand...everything's going surprisingly well. I went to see Mindless Self Indulgence a few weeks ago...pure 'mazing :) Am all set to see Snow Patrol avec ma meilleure copine at the end of March...this year is the year of gigging-as-long-as-it-doesn't-clash-with-e
New message: "hi hi! how are u? im at keane concert, theyre brill live :)"
Reply: "lol, wut. no really, awesome. glad its going well. am stuck at home with migraine from hell, but you have fun :P"
New message: "aw bummer."
You said it.
I'm quite glad I had nothing planned for this weekend to be quite honest...I started feeling a bit off on Wednesday when I was in Belfast on a 'study day'. By Friday night I was in full-blown-migraine mode, and had to hang about the out of hours GP until 3am on Saturday morning. Fun fun fun...Two injections, several tablets (which, it turns out that I'm sensitive to) and many many sicky-bad times. Of course, the way it goes I'm feeling fine now :P
Listening to Jaydiohead, and feeling "pretty sweet, actually." Add a smattering of Merlin fanfic and, well, yay.
Ho hum.
- Mood: cheerful
- Music:99 Anthems - Jaydiohead
I just...discovered something funny today. I write fanfic. I'm not ashamed of it, and I write often, even in school (but I keep it to the PG stuff in school). My best friend has been very iffy about that. "But...why?" So I educated her. Merlin, Doctor Who...then I realised I wasn't getting through to her. So I switched to Stargate Atlantis, Harry Potter (being *very* careful...) and Discworld. She absolutely loves the respective books/shows, so it's easier to get through to her that way.
Success! She understood, even though I had to be very delicate with slash.
"Can I read some of your Merlin fanfic?"
"Um...no."
"Why not? You're a good writer."
"Because it's Arthur...and- Merlin."
"Oh God, why would you do that?" (I'm not exaggerating, she was that appalled! I don't know why, she knows I ship M/A)
"...you don't watch Merlin. You don't KNOW."
She's morally opposed to slash, (teh gay in general, but anyways) so is strictly het-shipping...takes all the fun out of it. Anyway, I found out today that she got plot bunnies for Discworld, so she's writing in that fandom. I felt like a proud mother :P Not that I inspired her in any way of course, not with my allegiances. I'm pretty sure she won't do anything horrific with Mr Pratchett's behbehs. ...Pretty sure.
Hahah, my best mate is a ficcer now :3
Also, 2 hour English exam today. Ded nao thx, I was writing the whole time. I have a GCSE maths module on Friday mornin', and another 2.5 hour English Lit in the aftynoon. Nothing tomorrow and nothing on Monday. Mindless Self Indulgence on Tuesday night after my French exam, and a Biology practical all day Wednesday. -_-
Weekerrr. Christmas, blah. Odd this year, didn't feel like it, really.
I'd have preferred not to get as much as I did because I just...there's some of it that I intensely dislike and I've had to keep it, put it somewhere and possibly use it in the future. It's like...if you didn't know what to get me, I'd have preferred that you didn't get me more than a card; because I have to fake looking pleased and I don't like lying.
I've spent the last two days in somewhat intense pain too, so I am not a happy bunny. I got a lot of chocolate though, so that thought might sustain me for a while. Not eating it, though...just knowing it's there. And we had people to visit - my aunt and uncle from England - and I was having an introverted spike. Did not want to talk to anyone. It's not anyone else's fault (well, not directly), but my mother was annoyed that I was 'being a bitch'. Really, I'll tell you everything; just not now. Not at Christmas.
Next up! New Year's parties, oh god. Either having one of my mates round (could be awkward), staying in on my own (depression, also a waste of time), or going somewhere with my parents (awkward again).
"It's on your foot?"
"Um...mum? Straight people don't usually *have* gaydar, I think."
On a completely unrelated note I might chop my left foot off. It's been all...ooky, for want of a better word, for months...athlete's foot? Nooo... Nail infections, naah. I've been given tubes of Canesten and a 'good luck'. Remind me not to leave them on top of the cistern again, my brother was quite red faced. He's seen the adverts. ¬__¬
Episode 5 of Merlin tonight, and then maybe a bit of journalling, I got a new Moleskine yesterday :3 They're ridiculous wastes of money, but sooo pretty. I was going to wait until the first of January, but I saw no reason to do so other than convention. So that went promptly out the window.
Then, a Christmas tea par-tay on Monday at Emma's house, I believe. How civilised. Our oven is broken, and it's not likely to be fixed til after Christmas. We can cook in it, but it has to be wedged shut with one of the kitchen chairs. It would be quite comical, if we weren't planning to have, you know, Christmas dinner. Oh dear.
I left school a day earlier than I should have, on Thursday. It involved being threatened by David, and getting my apple taken off me *sadface* then he gave it back. Somewhat odd...but still. He pretty much just showed himself up, tbh; telling me to move to a different lunch table because he couldn't stand the sight of me. How mature. I didn't move, either.
- Music:Oppenheimer - MO
