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What's up-date

Thu, 12 Nov 2009 20:37:38 GMT

Haven't posted since that big Ash related ranty post. Well...I tweeted @ashofficial yesterday...and Oh My Days I got a reply. There's a potential all ages Belfast show in the spring. Which is yay in itself, but omg I got a reply! :D

In the real world, I'm doing fine. Winter's a bit hard to adjust to...really if the moon's still up it's still time to be in bed :(

I have to learn to knit again, though. Young Enterprise group, huzzah. Early mornings, sekrit product development, breaktime sales meetings... My company takes everything so seriously. It's amusing.

Seriously though. I got stuck on my ICT coursework today, had the teacher take a look at it...she told me what I was stuck on was beyond A Level, so she didn't help me D:

I enjoy my classes...they're just not what I really want to do. I get pointed looks from the careers teachers every so often. "that's a very difficult career to get started in..." IT'S A RECESSION. Wow >.>
I know, I sound very snippy, but they grind my gears.

I'm tired of being told that I'm not good enough, by people that barely know me; I know they have to be cautious because you can't just say someone's going to get their dream job straight out of uni...but a bit of faith and positivity would be smashing.
So would friends that aren't attention seeking and two faced...or overly clingy. Or wannabe counsellors.

Oh, woe. :P

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Rant times!

Sun, 11 Oct 2009 18:06:11 GMT

Specifically about Ash. They haven't come to Northern Ireland for ages, and when they do? Their gig is over-18s only.

For. Fuck's. Sake.

It's kind of ironic, given that Tim's been so supportive of Oh Yeah, which was specifically meant so that under 18s could see more gigs. I know it's harder to make money on all ages gigs, but they could've done a show at the Ulster Hall and I'm sure it would've still been popular, if people want to see the band, not just get drunk at Katy Daly's. I feel like a whiny self centred brat just saying this, but they are my favourite band, so...yeah. :(

I mean...I still love them to bits, but I really really hope they're still touring in two years time. You can never really tell with bands, what they're going to do. :( :( :(

And my 'best friend's' party last night...oh, Internet! Why are people such wab-ends?

No wonder they call it a career.

Sat, 03 Oct 2009 23:36:48 GMT

The word for a job is the same as the word for a journey that's a bit manic. I also hate my careers class; the teacher barely knows me, but pretends we're BFFs only to be condescending if anyone starts talking about doing something they like for a living.
I don't know what I want to do when I grow up. I'd like to do medicine, or law, or youth work, or ICT/programming. I don't know which one to choose; I'm not too worried just yet, I've got another year til UCAS start hounding me...

My ICT teacher's also a twerp; initial draft coursework deadline is this Monday - she missed classes, meaning very few people actually know what to do. I've done the bit she asked for, but I can't help others (even though I want to) because a. time pressure and b. I've done everything in a stupidly complex way that works, but only makes sense to me and twerp woman. But the class itself is lovely, and fulfils my RDA of geekiness. I also want to learn HTML & CSS, but we'll see how that goes because I do have three other subjects to do, and 2 committees, and doing mentoring for firsties. Although learning a programming language would maybe help me see if this is just a hobby, or something worth doing a degree with.

And the majority of friends-who-aren't-asshats are all away at uni now. Still, most are coming home for Christmas, not too long to wait. I don't think I'll do Nanowrimo this year though, because I don't really need anything else on. I don't really want to go to bed, either...but I suppose I might as well.

The timer's at zero...

Wed, 02 Sep 2009 19:41:25 GMT

School started back today. Unfortunately I may have a chest infection, and as such, was slightly ded for the majority of the day. It was good though, I'm doing Biology, Chemistry, English Lit and ICT for AS Levels; I got 1 B, 6 As and 3 A*s at GCSE. I'm also doing Young Enterprise, and hoping to apply for the Charity Committee and ~~firstie~~ peer mentoring.

I'm looking forward to Fridays though, I have only two classes (four periods, out of ten) all day. The rest of the week is decent enough, Mondays are busy but I have study first period, so that helps ease things a bit...I'm not quite sure though, I don't feel old enough. Half the day's been spent scaring the first years, the other half's been us wandering around like lost baby deer.

And yes, all the friends I made over the summer have fecked aff to Uni. Including one of my best mates, which...hurts. He's not even gone yet, but I miss him like crazy. Cambridge, though, everyone's really proud of him :) He's worked his arse off. The rest of my summer worked out amazingly, sorry for not updating...I think I went to about 40 gigs in two months, seeing around 60 bands. That's exactly what I wanted to do...most of it was in exchange for a bit of volunteer work, so I'm not even that much out of pocket :P The gig I put on with a mate failed, though. Shame...but these things happen.

I've also started to go to a new LGBT youth group, which I do enjoy. Some people are all "wtf, why do you need to segregate yourself?" And it's all well and good, I understand their point, but it's either this, or isolation.

I don't mean to complain, though. Things are going astoundingly well for the start of a new school year, and it'll be my time for Uni and all that when I'm old enough. It's not that long, anyway :3 I keep meaning to focus on the good things in life, but my mind keeps drifting to my ambitions and I get frustrated that everything's not happening fast enough.

Everything in its right place.

an excerpt

Tue, 28 Jul 2009 20:20:05 GMT

"Cats are pretty much tiny children though. I've spent the last half hour trying to get Winnie to stop throwing herself off the edge of things and poking at the computer; I turned my head for one second and she was munching away at a blueberry muffin, and then she fell asleep in one of the most awkward places ever...

...sprawled over the majority of my desk chair; I'm perched on the edge of it like an eejit. But i don't want to wake her by force, so I'm just playing Icelandic classical music somewhat loudly. That alone signifies that I am not cut out for parenting."

IM, this evening.

(Winnie's still asleep; the Sigur Ros continues.)

Summer so far.

Sat, 11 Jul 2009 22:39:38 GMT

Summer has been good, I'm currently drained because of about four eighteen-hour days, a full calendar for July and covering a DJ set at lunchtime; I got home at 2am. *ded*

However, I did get to work with some awesome bands. I'm doing an Events Management course at TransBelfast, an arts festival and creative 'summer school' of sorts. Learning skillzzz. Last night and Thursday were full days, in class during the day and covering the trans:mission festival in the evening. Good thing is, we got into gigs for free and will continue to do so until the end of the festival...as long as we work of course. But it's amazing fun; unfortunately there was a bomb scare at the Hilton next door, throwing the city into disarray and meaning us 'events managers' (read: dogsbodies) did roadie duty for ASIWYFA! It was awesome. I mainly worked the merchandise stall, which meant I could duck in for the headline bands when the foyer was quiet. :D ASIWYFA were amazing, I got right to the front; closest thing to a religious experience I've known.

I've got gigs and other events coming up til the end of July, then will probably be throwing myself into Amnesty, Pride, and Absolute Zero's own gig. Waheyyy...and I've been keeping away from destructive influences, but I've been swearing like a sailor. =/ I also went to an 'industry networking' event - I was working at it, but it involved setting up a Nintendo Wii and making sure people knew where they were going - I met so many awesome people, including journalists and musicians who recognised me. I was talking about setting up a business, either events promotion or running a gig venue, and everyone treated me like an adult.

It meant that everyone got a bit 'whoaaa' when I said I was sixteen. All in all, it's going well. Nothing is perfect but it's getting there. :D :D :D I have Sunday and Monday free, so I'll probably be dozing and doing vague plans for the future. Sometimes I think I shouldn't worry about my future as much as I do, but to be quite honest I want to get out there. Whether running gigs or a venue will ever be profitable is one thing to worry about, but I can't wait to get A levels over with and be in Uni. Thinking about law, depending on what I can study. Therefore checking Uni websites, which means worrying, which means that it's a vicious cycle. In amongst that I'm trying to see the good side of being a yoof. It's no' bad, I'm thoroughly enjoying life at the moment.

Writer's Block: Last Meal

Wed, 10 Jun 2009 16:21:55 GMT

What do you want your last meal to be?

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Probably a curry; although that could change, just because I'm really craving it at the minute. A really nice korma, naan bread and onion bhajis...nom nom nom. Having said that, I'm having that tonight :P

Because...my exams are over! A month of 'orrible evil things is ovarrrr. Have given my revision textbooks to my younger friends, because it'll be them next year. French writing and physics. It went well enough, I was flummoxed by one physics question because I couldn't remember the formula to start it, then it popped up in my head with 2 minutes to go...I've never written so fast in my life, I'm telling you :P

Of course it's all okay now, but the results will be the real indication of mah brane skillz.

Tonight I'm slobbing out with a curry then Big Bang Theory S1. *blush* Tomorrow I'm sorting what can and can't be recycled or bunged off to charity shops; you really amass a tremendous amount of paper in two years. On Friday I'm going into Belfast for a picnic with friends, watching them get hammered and myself and Richard just lmao'ing at them.

After that, it's anything can happen summer... By later on I'll just be ready to collapse though, I've been all over the place today.

Fandom hates me

Sun, 07 Jun 2009 22:39:54 GMT

I'm a fickle person, I admit it...

The Big Bang Theory has kind of shifted to be more important than Merlin. :'( I'd like to point out that my allegiances shift when the shows are on and off the air, so Merlin will be an obsession again come September, no doubt.

I wrote Penny/Sheldon fluff... My ficcing pen has not yet turned to dust, despite scrawling EVIL HET next to some historical notes about Guinevere.

Bahh.

More coherency later.

Mindless ranting, about bikes, money, summer and the Daily Fail

Mon, 25 May 2009 11:28:38 GMT

On study leave today and tomorrow; Home Economics exam on Wednesday, then I never have to do that horrific subject again. Then study leave Thursday and Friday, the weekend, then all Hell breaks loose. That is to say, an exam per day (sometimes two) from the first to fifth of June, then...nothing until the 10th, when I have French reading and writing, then Physics. Then the rest of my life begins! Yay.

Well, saying that hopefully I get back to do A Levels. Until then, I have ten weeks in which to half-heartedly seek employment (I'm quite content being skint for the most part; I have a savings account but I don't like using it, 'just in case'). If I was biking more (if my parents would let me bike more...) then it might be more useful to get a folding bike because hauling it around on the train is inconvenient...even though Rosie is very comfortable. Having said that, I still need to get a decent bike lock...bah! Mundane wishes and money I don't want to spend...it's not that I'm being mean, but if I had a job I'd be more lackadaisical I think. Also, somewhere through the summer, I need to figure out how to do basic maintenance.

Although a folding bike would be useful in Uni...less chance of it being nicked from a rack in halls I guess, because it wouldn't have to be there.

I'd like to go on a bike trip around N. Ireland, maybe even to the Republic (won't say 'down South' because some of the Republic isn't :P), so...the Daily Fail's ranting on about teenagers going on mad holidays to Greek tourist resorts, and I'm talking about bike trails and nature reserves...very glam :P

I still forget I'm sixteen sometimes...

"This class/group/gig is only open to those over 16 years..."
"Oh. Wait...huh. Okay then."

The last 300 words are a testament to the fact that I'm really, really, too young for all this :P Although exciting things are happening with my Amnesty group; we're doing an action on June 20th for refugee rights and awareness...aside from the fact that doing research and case studies left people near to tears, the practical planning is looking good. Bleeding heart liberals, yeah yeah. We're going to construct a makeshift refugee camp in Belfast city centre, in the main shopping district...all legally of course...it's looking very very cool.

Although of course, the fact that I've put so much importance on this summer means that in all likelihood it could be absolutely rubbish.

In other news, my dad helped me get 4OD working on the Mac last night, because I missed The Big Bang Theory because of Biology revision. Now Bio is over and I have room to breathe, I could afford to watch TV...aww, Sheldon.

I've got nothing to fear, in this city

Fri, 15 May 2009 14:35:04 GMT

I'm listening to a song at the moment that makes it all sunny, for some reason. It's nice, because it's currently bucketing it down outside. It was lovely for a few days there. Oh well. I'm in the middle of my GCSEs, on study leave at the moment. In between re-reading 'Our Town' and 'Animal Farm' for the 3590th time (English Lit), I'm writing letters and listening to music. Korma sauce is lovely over vegetables, interestingly.

Probably going into Belfast or Lisburn tomorrow; I'd like to get an address book...probably just a plain one, will decorate it with all the ragged comic books I picked up from Oxfam a while back. I have too many peoples' addresses and numbers written on scraps of paper, or worse; just in my mobile's phone book. Dodgy stuff, because mobiles are irritatingly volatile...this old brick is holding out nicely, but I don't want to take the chance :)

I can't wait for summer...something tells me this summer's going to be different. I'm hopefully starting A Levels in September (that sounds so weird, I'm definitely not old enough!), and I left compulsory edumacation a week ago. Scary stuff. I hope I don't lose touch with everyone...I'm doing A Levels at the same school, so it shouldn't be that hard until I get to Uni. Fingers crossed. Although having said that, I don't think losing touch with people would be all bad. Probably the opposite.

I'm hoping to do some work experience, and then just getting the train to wherever's sunniest, or biking around town for the craic. I'm not sure if I have the money or the energy to leave NIreland, but travelling's always fun. There's summer schemes booked, Belfast Pride (...for the craic), Amnesty, and going on the hunt for Awesome.

I have exams to do first though. Ho hum.

Also, does anyone know a vegetarian alternative to prawn crackers? A vegetarian friend of mine is going crazy for them, but obviously the prawn-y bit of them is not-so-good.

"You mean there's prawns in prawn crackers?"
"Um, yeah. Unless...what prawn crackers have you been eating?"
"Uh, well, I thought it was just a name."
"No, I'm afraid not. Well done there."

Writer's Block: What is your name?

Thu, 09 Apr 2009 16:11:08 GMT

If you were to have another name, what would it be?

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Alex, but Alexander fully. I like the sound of it, and it means 'warrior, defender of man'. Kind of fitting, with the whole human rights thing :P

Also it's gender-neutral in its shortened form, Greek, nothing like Laura and it's just awesome :) I've loved it ever since I was little. Kind of weird since I'm 'Alex' to people half the time anyway, it just depends what I'm comfortable with them calling me...

Haha.

Life is busy. Busy fun, but busy.

Fri, 27 Mar 2009 22:39:05 GMT

So what's been going on with you over the past wee while? Lots of good things, I hope.

It's actually been weird over the past few weeks, we've had some astounding weather for March. Today started off horribly, then was glorious over lunch, then shabby again. Ah well. Have been very busy, schoolwork, futureplans, life in general, gigging...

I went to see Snow Patrol on Monday night at the Odyssey. As much as I hate the way the Odyssey 'does'/runs their gigs, it was a fantastic night...Duke Special was amazing too, I love his style of music. Very flamboyant, quite macabre in a way. Then I stayed late on Tuesday after school to work on ICT coursework, late on Wednesday to work on Art, and late on Thursday to finish and submit my ICT coursework. It's such a relief to have it in though, we're winding up courses and getting revision materials started.

On Wednesday evening I went to the Ulster Hall to see Andy Cairns chatter about his experiences of the NI music scene + industry. Got there and felt a bit star-struck; Andy Cairns, Mike Edgar, Adam Turkington and Rigsy, notably. I asked a question (it was being recorded, golly!) and Andy was super nice about answering it, I felt like I was actually being taken seriously. :) There were 14 people in the audience, excluding bar staff...mostly industry types tbh.

My question was "I was interested to hear your own experiences of going to gigs as a teenager. Do you think there's enough made available to young people now, such as all-ages gigs, or even making their own music? Especially since the Oh Yeah centre opened."

I have my Art GCSE on Monday and Tuesday. Feeling pretty confident at the moment...but we'll see. I'm going to Swansea in about a week, then it's Easter, then my birthday, then GCSEs, then the rest of my life.

Told my parents that I was considering studying English at Uni instead of Medicine because I wanted to go into Journalism. At the moment I'm building up potential places to send reviews to, have got one placement working with promotions at the arts centre near me, answered a request for submissions to a local fanzine...I'm just writing, building it up. There'll be a slight problem because I'm underage and there's not that many all-ages gigs to review, so I'm mostly sticking to local bands' EPs and things.

Asked my English teacher if she thought I'd be capable and she said "Oh, without a doubt. You have a wonderful, distinctive style and I think you'd love it." I looked up QUB's course content and it's pretty amazing!

This summer, I'm doing a course on Gig Promotion at the Urban Arts Academy, which is an awesome arts festival in Belfast. I'm hoping to go to Glasgowbury (local music festival), keep going to as many gigs as possible, try and score a few interviews with local bands...busy busy busy. I genuinely think I can do it, though.

So tonight will be the first night in a while that I'm going to go to sleep without feeling under pressure to get things done IMMEDIATELY LIEK NAO.

P.S. spent too much money in Backbeat Records the other week, but on the upside Red Sirus are amazing. Apologies for the slightly breakneck pace of this entry, but I'm feeling quite restless at the moment. :) I love adolescence, especially when I know that I can do this.

Slightly emotional rant, but tbh...idc :P

Tue, 10 Mar 2009 22:30:21 GMT

3 people killed by assorted paramilitaries in the last 72 hours. Lost sons, a lost husband and father. It's...scary. Scary that there are still people out there prepared to kill because of politics and nationality. I lost any hint of naivete at quite a young age; that's what happens when you ask questions and get answers you don't expect.

I know that extremists, especially in the context of the Troubles, will never quite go away. There are too many people who take it seriously enough to educate their children and their peers in this way; they're vastly out-numbered by the rational population of Northern Ireland, but still they manage to cause fear.

The maximum amount of fear caused by the minimum amount of 'work'; that's what they're looking for. It can't go back to the 'bad old days' no matter what journalists will speculate. We've grown too much as a society, to let this drag us back. I may not agree with a lot of what my politicians say; I may not follow a popular church; but I know that I can't be the only one that gets frustrated when Northern Ireland is reduced down to Catholics and Prods, orange and green and blood red.

When I was small I was scared of everything. The politics and military edge to everything just made it confusing and violent. Now I understand it, I have my own opinions and my own voice. I refuse to be scared by a few 'wee ganches'. Murder and harming others is not the way to go about getting what you want. It may be an effective scare tactic, but you won't convince people for long.

Technology is awesome

Fri, 13 Feb 2009 16:12:12 GMT

I'm on Twitter - dramaticboy - God help us all. Had been unsure as to if I'd get an account or not, then a mate of mine emailed me to say "Get oneeee!" ...so I did. Peer pressure is a terrible thing, I tell thee. Really, I'm all over the internet...Twitter, Notemine, LJ, Bebo, Youtube...I'm all connected up lulz. Just a warning, if you're on my FL and you have twitter, I may follow you; you're of no obligation to do the same though. ty!

So what's been going on since my last infrequent update? Well, I'm on my last day of mid term holiday...not done much tbh. Was in hospital for just under a week with that 'migraine' I had. The only thing that helped it was morphine, then that wore off, so they kept switching my meds to try and prevent dependency. Was unpleasant, but the best place to be, I suppose. Neurology dept. was flummoxed, and my neurosurgeon saw nothing wrong from 5 different scans...opthalmology was like "WTF, it's just a migraine, not our department u guise!" Neurology then had a decent look, said it's not a migraine but definitely a neurological problem. A few days later I was sent home; am still a little bit wonky but getting better :3 I think I've fecked up a muscle in my foot though as I can barely walk, got the Tubigrip on it but I'm hobbling like a pirate with a peg leg. Would be funny if I had not got sh*t to do.

Mmf. Also also MERLIN MERLIN MERLIN! Dragged myself out to Tesco's Monday morning to get Volume 2. Have not watched all of it yet...Mum gives me funny looks when it's on...shame. But the extra features...oh, boys. Even Angel and Katie see the love. Also, lol at Merlin having its own tag on my LJ It's that important!

How are you?

If you're having girl problems I feel bad for you son

Sat, 24 Jan 2009 19:37:21 GMT

Exams are all over, results are slowly trickling back, aaand...everything's going surprisingly well. I went to see Mindless Self Indulgence a few weeks ago...pure 'mazing :) Am all set to see Snow Patrol avec ma meilleure copine at the end of March...this year is the year of gigging-as-long-as-it-doesn't-clash-with-exams. Which it is beginning to look like it might happen, a lot *annoyed face*

New message: "hi hi! how are u? im at keane concert, theyre brill live :)"
Reply: "lol, wut. no really, awesome. glad its going well. am stuck at home with migraine from hell, but you have fun :P"
New message: "aw bummer."

You said it.

I'm quite glad I had nothing planned for this weekend to be quite honest...I started feeling a bit off on Wednesday when I was in Belfast on a 'study day'. By Friday night I was in full-blown-migraine mode, and had to hang about the out of hours GP until 3am on Saturday morning. Fun fun fun...Two injections, several tablets (which, it turns out that I'm sensitive to) and many many sicky-bad times. Of course, the way it goes I'm feeling fine now :P

Listening to Jaydiohead, and feeling "pretty sweet, actually." Add a smattering of Merlin fanfic and, well, yay.

Ho hum.

Hee hee :D

Wed, 07 Jan 2009 21:00:06 GMT

I just...discovered something funny today. I write fanfic. I'm not ashamed of it, and I write often, even in school (but I keep it to the PG stuff in school). My best friend has been very iffy about that. "But...why?" So I educated her. Merlin, Doctor Who...then I realised I wasn't getting through to her. So I switched to Stargate Atlantis, Harry Potter (being *very* careful...) and Discworld. She absolutely loves the respective books/shows, so it's easier to get through to her that way.

Success! She understood, even though I had to be very delicate with slash.
"Can I read some of your Merlin fanfic?"
"Um...no."
"Why not? You're a good writer."
"Because it's Arthur...and- Merlin."
"Oh God, why would you do that?" (I'm not exaggerating, she was that appalled! I don't know why, she knows I ship M/A)
"...you don't watch Merlin. You don't KNOW."

She's morally opposed to slash, (teh gay in general, but anyways) so is strictly het-shipping...takes all the fun out of it. Anyway, I found out today that she got plot bunnies for Discworld, so she's writing in that fandom. I felt like a proud mother :P Not that I inspired her in any way of course, not with my allegiances. I'm pretty sure she won't do anything horrific with Mr Pratchett's behbehs. ...Pretty sure.

Hahah, my best mate is a ficcer now :3

Also, 2 hour English exam today. Ded nao thx, I was writing the whole time. I have a GCSE maths module on Friday mornin', and another 2.5 hour English Lit in the aftynoon. Nothing tomorrow and nothing on Monday. Mindless Self Indulgence on Tuesday night after my French exam, and a Biology practical all day Wednesday. -_-

Thu, 25 Dec 2008 23:48:01 GMT

Weekerrr. Christmas, blah. Odd this year, didn't feel like it, really.

I'd have preferred not to get as much as I did because I just...there's some of it that I intensely dislike and I've had to keep it, put it somewhere and possibly use it in the future. It's like...if you didn't know what to get me, I'd have preferred that you didn't get me more than a card; because I have to fake looking pleased and I don't like lying.

I've spent the last two days in somewhat intense pain too, so I am not a happy bunny. I got a lot of chocolate though, so that thought might sustain me for a while. Not eating it, though...just knowing it's there. And we had people to visit - my aunt and uncle from England - and I was having an introverted spike. Did not want to talk to anyone. It's not anyone else's fault (well, not directly), but my mother was annoyed that I was 'being a bitch'. Really, I'll tell you everything; just not now. Not at Christmas.

Next up! New Year's parties, oh god. Either having one of my mates round (could be awkward), staying in on my own (depression, also a waste of time), or going somewhere with my parents (awkward again).

"It's on your foot?"

Sat, 20 Dec 2008 21:33:27 GMT

My father announced to me that he thinks Colin Morgan has a touch of the gay about him...this would have been amusing had I not been in the middle of lunch. Cue much laughing-into-a-sandwich. Oh dear...oh well. Then, my mother added "Well, I don't know. My gaydar's a little wonky, you see."

"Um...mum? Straight people don't usually *have* gaydar, I think."

On a completely unrelated note I might chop my left foot off. It's been all...ooky, for want of a better word, for months...athlete's foot? Nooo... Nail infections, naah. I've been given tubes of Canesten and a 'good luck'. Remind me not to leave them on top of the cistern again, my brother was quite red faced. He's seen the adverts. ¬__¬

Episode 5 of Merlin tonight, and then maybe a bit of journalling, I got a new Moleskine yesterday :3 They're ridiculous wastes of money, but sooo pretty. I was going to wait until the first of January, but I saw no reason to do so other than convention. So that went promptly out the window.

Then, a Christmas tea par-tay on Monday at Emma's house, I believe. How civilised. Our oven is broken, and it's not likely to be fixed til after Christmas. We can cook in it, but it has to be wedged shut with one of the kitchen chairs. It would be quite comical, if we weren't planning to have, you know, Christmas dinner. Oh dear.

I left school a day earlier than I should have, on Thursday. It involved being threatened by David, and getting my apple taken off me *sadface* then he gave it back. Somewhat odd...but still. He pretty much just showed himself up, tbh; telling me to move to a different lunch table because he couldn't stand the sight of me. How mature. I didn't move, either.

;3 nom nom nom

Sat, 13 Dec 2008 16:56:00 GMT

Wheeeeee Merlin!

I got the first half of series 1 on DVD today. Thanks to miranda_skye's fic/fandom rants and squees, I'll sit down and watch a 'children's' show and look for slashy moments. :3 Add to that I have a boy-crush on Colin Morgan (It's only a TV show, I refuse to speculate about 'what that means' - David's gayer-than-thou attitude has seen to that. Seriously, what?)...well, I'm not sure if I'd rather do him or be him. I think it's more the latter, but hey, who knows. He works better with Bradley anyway.

Also got a few Christmas gifts for mates at school, still flummoxed for a few but I'll sort it out soon enough. Was in Belfast for...um...three hours, absolutely frozen, yay. I suck at buying make-up, even after I'm told exactly what to get. Oops. And strangely instead of wanting hot chocolate, I'm craving fruit juice. I wonder what that means. 6 days til I get off for Christmas *ded*

X Factor? Feck aff. Go cry, Eoghan kid. He's probably gonna win anyway. Awk, I want the guy to do well, cos he's got so far, but I just don't...care that much. More important things to focus on, like my GCSEs, and talking about slash with Rachel.

:3

EDIT: Ohmygod ohmygod aaaaaaah! "MERLIIIIIN!" *beeg dragon rar*

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH.

Colin Morgan looks like Tim Wheeler when he screams :3 Also, miranda_skye yes, many slashy momentz. Heeee :3

Starcross'd Lovers

Sat, 29 Nov 2008 23:14:11 GMT

It's really weird. I go from not being emotionally capable of listening to Starcrossed by Ash, to having it on repeat for an hour. And then I cried at the end of it, but there you go.

And my best friend passed on her sore throat to me, so now I have a voice to rival Andrea Ferro :3 I wouldn't mind it, nay, I'd even enjoy it if it wasn't so bloody sore. It wasn't the best of fun last night, I was helping put on a gig for Amnesty in Belfast (fantastic fun, loved every second), and I was yelling across the room trying to get shit organised before the doors opened, during sound check. Ouch. It was at the Oh Yeah Centre, and they have pictures of Northern Irish music legends on the walls; including Terri Hooley, a gurning Jake Burns and a seventeen/eighteen year old Ash! Adorable.

And today I slept until twelve, got up and had cottage pie for breakfast...odd. Mucked about the house, tried not to cough blood up, made two banana loaves and read the Grauniad...

I got a little annoyed there because I realised I have no reason to keep Razorshite on my mp3 player and it comes up all the bloody time. I switched it to Jamie Lidell, so I'm feeling a little better... unbelievably tired considering I got six hours more sleep than usual.

Une meme de hopelesswarning

Thu, 06 Nov 2008 16:38:37 GMT

1. Stop talking about politics for a moment or two.
2. Post a reasonably-sized picture in your LJ, NOT under a cut tag, of something pleasant, such as an adorable kitten, or a fluffy white cloud, or a bottle of booze. Something that has NOTHING TO DO WITH POLITICS.
3. Include these instructions, and share the love.

Say it with me! "Aww."

sighs

Sat, 18 Oct 2008 21:38:28 GMT

You know what?

If I do something wrong, I'll find out for myself and I'll accept the consequences of that.

Please don't excuse yourself by trying to 'protect' me; stopping me, hindering me is making me worse.

Don't ask me why I am the way I am. I don't understand! Seriously, I'm a teenager, give me a break. I'm still trying to find out about all the little things; things I've never really given an owl's beak about and then all of a sudden it's like "Wow, on this issue, I think <x>! Holy shit!" I don't even have a name for all this. I don't fit into any box although I wish I did. It would make it so much easier, believe me. "Yes, I am *blah blah*." Instead of, "Well, do you have an hour?"
And for the love of all things sparkly, don't tell me I'm "confused" and that I'll "figure it out when I'm older."

Yeah? What about now? Am I just meant to sit here and be laughed at, because hey, in 5 years time it'll be fantastic!

I know you just want the best for me, but seriously? Let me have a go at my own life.

To my parents, specifically: I'm not joking. If I felt like I could even put this into words that wouldn't make you cry? I don't know. It's just...I don't even know how to give it a name. I don't even know if it's just me "being a tomboy, like always,". Whenever you say things to me like "Well, you're a girl, so..." "...and wear something girly for once, please." I can just about cope with constantly being referred to as your daughter. Saying that, I'm not sure how I'd react if I was 'your son', because I'm not FTM. But I'm trying to think of some civilised way of letting my parents know "Um, I'm sorta...inbetween..." that won't make you frogmarch me to a doctor. To me, genderqueer is a good enough term, but not for my parents.

So much phail!

Wed, 15 Oct 2008 21:02:39 GMT

Although it is Autumn nao, and we're studying gothic horror in English. I wish I knew more people with good taste in books. The teenage reading group at my local library is strictly Y.A. novels...The odd thing is, I've always been discouraged from reading classic lit. George Orwell, JD Salinger, Stephen Chbosky...too scary apparently! I'm expected to stick to Austen and Bronte. Ahaha. What's up with that?

NaNoWriMo in November. I'm getting off school at the end of next week, and nowt much is planned. I'm probably just going to make a ton of muffins.

The phail is the constant anxiety. "Eeeegh!" is the thought going through my mind. I don't have the energy at the moment. So yes, currently I fail at perseverance.

Pfft.

Thu, 18 Sep 2008 17:19:47 GMT

Yargh. Well, I'm not dead, just sleepy. Two weeks...I performed in a musical in the Civic Centre for a week. School hasn't been fantastic, but with small joys in my science classes (I adore physics!) and the English language, it's been bearable.

I went to the library quite a few times :) I ended up getting a book on genetics, one on proof-reading skills (g33k), a book of poetry and I'm sure several other things. I love that library. Also, I've reserved Twilight...I may regret reading it, so I'm not too bothered where I am in the waiting list. I'm just tired of not-having-read it. I don't think I'll like it; I may keep it for the max 3 weeks, except that may be a little sadistic. =/

I also have a head cold, but with plenty of soup I'm sure I'll be fine :3

It's hard getting a balance between getting homework done and doing things I want to do. English Homework, or plan for NaNoWriMo? Clean the bathroom, or make vegetable soup?

I may just sleep for the entire weekend, cos it's pure manky weather here.

Fri, 29 Aug 2008 16:28:00 GMT

I have to admit I LOL'd at this, but it's a little bit alarming.
No atheist burials in Co Donegal
Ah, "...she can go in with the Protestants." Lovely.

Other than that, I was back at school today, til 12. Bah. I don't like it at all...and my schedule is pretty heavy going, lots of double period classes one after the other. Lots of physics, which I'm happy with. ^^ I like physics. And I have a new art teacher, which I'm apprehensive but initially happy about...my teacher last year went on maternity leave halfway through the year. Her 'replacement' was a fantastic teacher who was actually at the school, she wasn't a temp. I guess she just had too much work this year. So we've got a new teacher, but I'll see how that goes.

After I got home from school I had lunch then did some work out in the garden. It looks good now but I'm so sore, I did too much exercise last night, oops.

I also have Amnesty tomorrow, at the Student's Union. Should be interesting, cos I've never been! With good reason. Other than that I'm writing, and I'm also thirsty. I should drink something. I also quit working at PDSA, I don't have the time anymore, I feel really bad :(

...I'm not spending my weekend on Livejournal.